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seeking: a lifetime supply of melatonin.
βJessica, go toΒ sleep!β
As a child, my mom would basically have to beg me to shut off for the evening. Winding down each night β closing my book, getting off the family computer, or switching off my GameBoy β was a routine I vehemently despised.
Why should I go to bed because everyone else is? Iβm wide awake! This is prime βme time,β baby!
Itβs not that I didnβt love sleeping. I couldβve slept the whole weekend away if it was socially acceptable. I just loved having uninterrupted hours to do whatever while everyone else was quietly snoozing. Iβd lose myself more imaginatively in a book, write more honestly in my journal, beat levels in games quicker. Just me and my fun little activities all night long.
Even in adulthood, little has changed. Itβs not uncommon for me to stay up until 3am, determined to finish a novel or essay I started that day. Other times, Iβll take a deep dive into geopolitics, psychology, or βRihannaβs incredibleΒ vintage bagΒ /Β watchΒ collectionβ, only to check my own clock and realise I have 4 hours until I need to be up for work. Itβs great until itβs not.
Although the term βnight owlβ is a pretty cutesy phrase to describe those who prefer to be active late at night and into the early morning, this preference for nighttime is unbelievably impractical. As a result, I β like most night owls β struggle immensely with waking up.
A couple years ago, footballer (and fashion legend) HΓ©ctor BellerΓn recommended the bookΒ Why We SleepΒ by Matthew Walker1Β on his Instagram. Determined to start valuing a decent bedtime routine, I read the overview, and decided to picked it up.
Before youβre even past the first chapter, Walker hits you with βfactsβ about how poor sleep cuts years off your life, causes various diseases, and can ultimately kill you. Needless to say, it sparked so much sudden anxiety around my poor sleeping habits that I stopped there, never to return. Thanks for nothing, Mr. Matthew.
Not long after, I stumbled upon a Twitter thread and discovered that thereβs loads of people around the world who have a habit of avoiding sleep. Users explained how they couldnβt stop engaging in βrevenge bedtime procrastinationβ no matter how tired they were during the day.
The phrase originates from aΒ Chinese expressionΒ which refers to consciously delaying your own bedtime. The reason? Regaining freedom you may not have during the day due to school, work, or family obligations, despite recognising that sleep deprivation is inevitable. Sleep procrastination is the rebellious act of taking back your personal time, even at your own detriment.
Doing more research on the topic, itβs apparent that people with ADHD are more likely to do this, because they naturally seek out dopamine-producing activities. When daytime routines arenβt providing enough stimulation, individuals stay awake well into the night, pursuing their own interests to make up for it.
Of course, this is a double-edged sword.
