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Opinion – Colleen Ballinger’s apology is a grim blur of comedy and consent

The former YouTube star Colleen Ballinger has faced allegations of grooming and abuse. Her bizarre response to these claims highlights the morbid meme-fication of almost everything.

Colleen Ballinger isn’t a name many will recognise. Perhaps the character that made her famous, Miranda Sings, will stir memories for those in their early-to-mid-twenties.

Ballinger rode the wave of huge success that YouTube made possible in the early 2010s. She was one of multiple content creators who functioned as the first ‘influencers,’ a unique form of celebrity who shared intimate details of their personal lives with fans.

But over the past few months, a number of Ballinger’s once-devout followers have come forward to accuse her of grooming them.

It’s claimed Ballinger exploited her platform, and the concurrent rise of social media that fostered it, to forge inappropriate relationships with her young fans.

Colleen first rose to fame with her internet persona Miranda Sings in 2008, gaining a reputation for her slapstick humour and crude online behaviour.

This caricatured version of herself wound up in Rolling Stone articles, became the face of a Netflix show, and won a Teen Choice award. Ballinger even published a book in 2015.

However, this unlikely success story came crashing down when 20-year-old Adam McIntyre publicly accused Ballinger of treating him inappropriately in 2016.

Speaking to Rolling Stone last month, McIntrye said that he and Colleen had developed a ‘real’ friendship after meeting in person, a relationship which developed via tweets and DMs. McIntyre was 14, and Colleen was 29.

‘In the moment, [I] didn’t really care if it was morally right or wrong,’ McIntrye said of their conversations, which ranged from light-hearted to more serious topics like Ballinger’s divorce.

‘I was just grateful that she was talking to me and not anyone else. It made me feel like ‘I know something that other people don’t know.’ They know Miranda Sings. But I know Colleen.’

But these conversations took a disturbing turn when Ballinger began sending McIntrye lingerie as a joke, regularly making sexual jokes and comments despite him being underage.

Other fans have also shared similar experiences, claiming Ballinger would create group chats with various fans in which to raise inappropriate topics such as sex and dating.

Allegedly, Colleen would also give these young people access to her social media accounts, asking them to essentially run them for her free of charge.

These statements epitomise the grooming process in that Ballinger exploited her position of power and influence to manipulate her fans for her own benefit.

Her use of social media – not only as an initial platform for fame, but as a space for coercing young people into digital environments they felt they couldn’t escape from – underlines the uncomfortable coalescence of entertainment and abuse that exists on the internet.

Most disturbing, however, has been Ballinger’s recent response to the controversy.

After staying quiet since McIntrye’s initial statements, Colleen finally addressed speculation in the format she knows best: a YouTube video.

But unlike the cringey tell-all apologies often favoured by tainted content creators, Ballinger’s response wasn’t remorseful, nor serious. Instead, she stringently denied any wrong-doing in the form of a ukelele song.

Perhaps Ballinger didn’t get the memo that ukulele videos went out with the cinnamon challenge in 2013.

Regardless, it wasn’t an appropriate format for responding to allegations of abuse and child grooming. I think almost anyone could tell you that.

McIntrye was quick to call out Colleen for her (quite literally) tone-deaf video, suggesting it proves her guilty of the unhinged behaviour she’s been accused of.

‘As much as colleen discredited & made fun of me, I’m glad her video did ONE thing, show you all EXACTLY the type of evil woman she is [sic]’ he said in a tweet.

Others have suggested Ballinger is simply too ignorant and juvenile to grasp the severity of the situation.

‘Her complete lack of awareness surrounding intent vs impact shows just how juvenile she is i guess?? [sic]’ Olivia tweeted on Wednesday.

But I think this cuts Ballinger too much slack. The fact she even felt it socially acceptable to create a saccharine song about child abuse points to something even darker than Colleen’s actions themselves.

We’ve suddenly found ourselves in a world where the internet not only dominates most of our lives, but has the capacity to thwart our perceptions of what passes as entertainment.

In the age of virality and memes, nothing is safe from being spun into a bite-sized, catchy nugget of content – to the point that serious, real-world issues and questions brush shoulders with dance videos and morbid jokes.

It’s this proximity that has spawned an endless string of memes about the recent Oceangate Titan disaster. Beneath the thousands of TikToks poking fun at the incident, one needs reminding that five people died.

As Ballinger’s cringeworthy video inevitably sees her go viral (again), we mustn’t lose sight of the lives she’s impacted, and the problematic ways content creators can forge intimate relationships with their followers.

This was perhaps best summarised by an unlikely source – Ballinger’s ex-husband Joshua David Evans, who took to Twitter this week to share his thoughts on the controversy;

‘Anyone feeling hurt & gaslit right now, my message to you is this: Your experiences were real […]. Your trauma should be taken seriously […]. Your anger is justified […]. You deserve better. Take your power back. Sending you love.’

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