angel vs. devil
if nothing matters, why bother? We make around 45 million choices throughout our lifetime. Sometimes they’re good, sometimes they’re bad, and sometimes, they’re really, really bad. But I’m willing to bet that most decisions we consider ‘bad’ aren’t always enough to alter the course of our lives. Most ‘bad...
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Stop shoving online therapy down our throats
i’m trying to watch YouTube in the bath. Go away I’m one BetterHelp ad away from bouncing my Pixel off the wall. Is it just me, or is anyone else being low key harassed by advertising for online therapy portals in 2024? It’s either that or male grooming kits. Perhaps my YouTube...
bedtime revenge
seeking: a lifetime supply of melatonin. ‘Jessica, go to sleep!’ As a child, my mom would basically have to beg me to shut off for the evening. Winding down each night – closing my book, getting off the family computer, or switching off my GameBoy – was a routine I vehemently despised. Why...
Netflix, can we have nice things?
Netflix in 2024 is pretty shite. I’m not a huge fan of reality TV. I’ll indulge in the odd season of Married At First Sight every couple years, sure, but I find it more irritating than anything before long. Despite being apparently ‘unscripted’, most now follow the same formula relentlessly year after year...
the selfishness of self-discovery
is it an exercise in narcissism to work on yourself? For several years now, I’ve been deep in the trenches of personal growth. Embarking on this journey wasn’t deliberate, however. Back in 2020, when the world ground to a halt, I was suddenly confronted with more time to reflect than I knew...
the internet will take your opinion now
everyone's a critic. Anytime I cook chicken for someone, I’m worried about killing them. I have a weird paranoia about accidentally giving people salmonella, even though this has never actually happened to me before. The worry persists even when I can see with both eyes that my chicken is cooked all...
bought a home & our generation is screwed
i’m lucky and grateful for my unique set of circumstances – most others categorically don’t have, or just don’t fancy. I’m currently in the process of moving into my first flat in the UK, I’m rapidly approaching 30 and have a daughter to keep clean, dry, and fed. Ruby is the best thing that’s ever happened to me – marginally ahead of Manchester United’s 1999 treble – but I’m not going...
will I ever heal my relationship with my body?
though I’d vehemently deny it if you ever brought it up, I cannot remember ever caring about my physical appearance in a way that could be considered ‘healthy.’ I’ve always wondered what it would be like to look in the mirror and feel optimistic about what’s in front of me. Saying that, I strive to avoid my reflection at all costs these days, to ward off the chastising that otherwise runs...
sorry i’m late, i didn’t want to come
i wonder what Carl Jung would think about this. “Are you introverted or extroverted?” asked my boyfriend’s childhood friend, taking a sip of his flat white. We’d been introduced only an hour before, which is maybe why this question made me feel more self-conscious than it should’ve. On the other hand, when people have always labelled you ‘the life of the party’, how do you explain that you’re just not anymore? Given that he’d...
my stupid ‘incurable’ disorder(s)
one truly sh*t medical marvel. So, my name has once again popped up on the Wildcard rotation and to be honest I don’t have a tonne of topics I’d like to explore. However, yesterday evening the night sky was full of static again and my ears were ringing till my offspring woke me up early this morning. I guess I’ll just talk about that. Apologies in advance if this is lacking any...
