the internet will take your opinion now
everyone's a critic. Anytime I cook chicken for someone, I’m worried about killing them. I have a weird paranoia about accidentally giving people salmonella, even though this has never actually happened to me before. The worry persists even when I can see with both eyes that my chicken is cooked all...
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bought a home & our generation is screwed
i’m lucky and grateful for my unique set of circumstances – most others categorically don’t have, or just don’t fancy. I’m currently in the process of moving into my first flat in the UK, I’m rapidly approaching 30 and have a daughter to keep clean, dry, and fed. Ruby is the...
will I ever heal my relationship with my body?
though I’d vehemently deny it if you ever brought it up, I cannot remember ever caring about my physical appearance in a way that could be considered ‘healthy.’ I’ve always wondered what it would be like to look in the mirror and feel optimistic about what’s in front of me. Saying...
sorry i’m late, i didn’t want to come
i wonder what Carl Jung would think about this. “Are you introverted or extroverted?” asked my boyfriend’s childhood friend, taking a sip of his flat white. We’d been introduced only an hour before, which is maybe why this question made me feel more self-conscious than it should’ve. On the other hand,...
my stupid ‘incurable’ disorder(s)
one truly sh*t medical marvel. So, my name has once again popped up on the Wildcard rotation and to be honest I don’t have a tonne of topics I’d like to explore. However, yesterday evening the night sky was full of static again and my ears were ringing till my offspring...
why is it so goddamn hard to be present?
try as I might to give the here and now my undivided attention, living in the moment is no easy feat when you’re navigating the chaos that’s your late twenties. In April last year, my reality was flipped on its head. The stability, security, and comfort that I was in retrospect...
is being ‘busy’ even desirable?
why does it feel like i never have enough time? This weekend, I’m lucky enough to be flying overseas for a holiday in Portugal. I know I’ll be spending some much-needed quality time with my mother, eating delicious food, drinking copious amounts of vinho verde, chatting about the big and little things in life, and soaking up some much-needed sun. I should be excited – of course I am – but...
the death of England football fever, sponsored by Southgate
three games in, top of the group, and yet I really can’t be arsed In the build-up to this year’s Euros, there was a distinct difference in feeling among England fans. Having previously revelled in our comfy underdog mentality and self-deprecation other nations mistook for arrogance (It’s coming home), we arrived in Germany as odds-on-favourites, with France, to win the thing. Despite the general consensus from England supporters that Gareth Southgate’s...
watching reality tv doesn’t make you a bad person
some might say it makes you a better one Let’s face it, reality television has a pretty bad reputation. Admitting you indulge in watching humans compete for fame while going at their castmates’ throats or tongue-snogging on camera can find you on the receiving end of some seriously bombastic side eyes. Confessing this to the wrong crowd may even see them privately knock your intellectual status down a couple pegs. ‘It’s trash!’...
yes, you can get your nature fix in the big smoke
if you live in London, you probably think there’s little more to the city than its greyness, busyness, & costliness. but if you know where to look, there’s a whole lotta green to be found. It’s nothing revolutionary, but I love being in nature. Growing up in the English countryside, I had the privilege of always being surrounded by it, though I didn’t actually start making the most of this until 2020. To...
