exposing myself
hear me out When deciding what to write for this week’s wildcard, I struggled to come up with just a single subject. Typically I’d be writing from London, a place that offers up endless inspiration thanks to the myriad of people and things one encounters on a daily basis. Despite its...
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i’m grateful for my people
it’s always a good idea to talk things through. When you’re struggling with your mental health, the first piece of advice you’re usually given is to ask for help – to be honest about it with someone you trust. Anyone who’s experienced the feeling of being at war with themselves,...
Has being a ‘roadman’ finally gone out of fashion?
It’s 2024… ‘low them tings there People, especially kids, will adopt what’s deemed to be fashionable. Thankfully, the ‘chav’ to ‘roadman’ arc appears to be on its last legs in England. Growing up in south London in the noughties was incredibly fun. Your mates were always out after school on bikes...
a love letter
to bristol There’s a funny kind of feeling that comes with returning to a place you once lived. I experienced it when walking along the streets of Bristol this weekend, hit by a wave of sentimentality for the city where I spent my university years. It felt like coming home. Strolling...
we’re doing way too much
wtf is ‘maxxing’ and why are we applying it to literally the most normal things? If you’ve been reading my musings, then you’ll know that I’ve been dedicating a good amount of time to bettering myself in recent years. But as much as I consider self-improvement a positive thing, as...
angel vs. devil
if nothing matters, why bother? We make around 45 million choices throughout our lifetime. Sometimes they’re good, sometimes they’re bad, and sometimes, they’re really, really bad. But I’m willing to bet that most decisions we consider ‘bad’ aren’t always enough to alter the course of our lives. Most ‘bad...
Stop shoving online therapy down our throats
i’m trying to watch YouTube in the bath. Go away I’m one BetterHelp ad away from bouncing my Pixel off the wall. Is it just me, or is anyone else being low key harassed by advertising for online therapy portals in 2024? It’s either that or male grooming kits. Perhaps my YouTube algorithm sees the amount of Manchester United rant content I consume and has decided I personally need an intervention. Either way,...
bedtime revenge
seeking: a lifetime supply of melatonin. ‘Jessica, go to sleep!’ As a child, my mom would basically have to beg me to shut off for the evening. Winding down each night – closing my book, getting off the family computer, or switching off my GameBoy – was a routine I vehemently despised. Why should I go to bed because everyone else is? I’m wide awake! This is prime ‘me time,’ baby! It’s not that...
Netflix, can we have nice things?
Netflix in 2024 is pretty shite. I’m not a huge fan of reality TV. I’ll indulge in the odd season of Married At First Sight every couple years, sure, but I find it more irritating than anything before long. Despite being apparently ‘unscripted’, most now follow the same formula relentlessly year after year – to the extent that people will say: ‘It’s the XYZ episode on Love Island tonight’ with genuine excitement. The novelty of these...
the selfishness of self-discovery
is it an exercise in narcissism to work on yourself? For several years now, I’ve been deep in the trenches of personal growth. Embarking on this journey wasn’t deliberate, however. Back in 2020, when the world ground to a halt, I was suddenly confronted with more time to reflect than I knew what to do with. Leading up to the pandemic, I was an expert in suppressing my emotions, using the transient dopamine-inducing...
